Maybe it is just the cold and the snow, but I have become infinitely tired of late. No matter how much sleep I get, how well I eat, how mindful I am about everything going on in my life, I feel exhausted. I am not sure what’s up. I do have a lot of things I am trying to do related to organizing Georg’s world. I am trying to get all this stuff moved into a more appropriate storage space (where it will still be accessible), build him a new website, have a memorial for him in Detroit. What else? Is that not enough?
For a while there, I was feeling like a lot of progress was being made. When progress was being made, (or when I perceived progress), I felt better. Right now, I feel mired in too much to do. This happens. The only cure is to keep doing things. It is difficult sometimes, to keep the spirits up when the blanket of overwhelm sets in. But, I really have no choice. Most importantly, I know Dad would not want me to stress about these things.
I keep thinking about the far distant future. What will happen to all his art and other stuff when I am not here to take care of it? But, that is not a helpful question. I cannot ask that question right now. What will happen to anything when I am not here to take care of it?
Right now, just take care of what I can take of. That is really all I can ever do.